Its ok to not be ok. Here is a list of trusted resources to get help now.
Crisis & Support Hotlines:
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255)
24/7 free and confidential support and crisis resources
Crisis Textline: text CONNECT to 741741
24/7 text message support for those in crisis
National Runaway Switchboard: 1-800-RUNAWAY (1-800-786-2929)
24/7 crisis support and resources for runaway and homeless youth
Child Abuse Hotline: 1-800-25-ABUSE (1-800-252-2873)
24/7 Illinois DCFS hotline to report child abuse or neglect
Between Friends: 1-800-603-HELP (1-800-603-4357)
24/7 domestic violence crisis line
Chicago Rape Crisis Hotline: 1-888-293-2080
24/7 Chicago rape hotline for survivors of sexual violence and and their significant others.
Cook County Jail Mental Health Hotline: 773-674-CARE (773-674-2273)
24/7 resource for families and friends of currently incarcerated inmates living with mental illness who are in need of special treatment and/or medication while in the Cook County Jail.